Nights without goodnite

It is the consecutive second night without goodnight.
I m just feeling lonely, very lonely without your soft voice.
I need your words to support me, everyday every night.
I think you feel the same way too.
Sorry for let you waiting.
My phones are coming and everything will be okay soon, alright?
Dear, I wish I can hold you more tightly.
You always know that I love you.

Stressed

Well, I'm stressed yet I think all will be ended this weekend.
You can say that I am greedy, since I have just dropped one course and added two courses (one is a life science!), so definitely I have to double or triple my effort to catch up the past classes and prepare for upcoming classes.
And also I am very "pik chek" since my microphone is not working in this ubuntu operated laptop. Never mind, my hubby should try to reduce the time we chat everyday, since the telephone fee has cost me more than $150, which is equivalent to RM 500, in only two weeks!
But I really dunno what to do currently to rescue the situation, since tomorrow I have a homework due and I gotta do my observation in lab tomorrow.
Ya..one thing that depressed me very much is, I can't catch up what my Bio professor is telling! I really hope that I can read more and fasterand earlier!
I really dunno how little is my smile today...Last night I did cry when he ask me not to over stress myself, and keep on saying sorry while he din do anything wrong.
Maybe just coz I din study for four months, and the feeling of stressed easily take me away.
All I hope is to complete whatever I need to do now and have a good rest in weekends...
I din even join any activity leh, surprised? Haha...

Back in moody

Going to start blogging again in English, since I am becoming speechless every time I open my blog.
Felt like I am really a child, that refuses to grow up, that refuses the reality where socialization is necessary, that have no plan towards future.
Felt like I have no contribution to the whole world, while I am sponsored to study, and I am bearing the dreams of my family and friends.
If I just want to be a naive and pampered person, I can just choose to marry the one that loves me.
But I don't want such life. I don't want to bet my life on somebody else.
I need somebody who just give me freedom and love as much as I want. I'm bad, right?

Talking about my campus life, excitement is just a while.
Though I have planned for the subjects that I am going to take the following semesters, I can hardly sit down and read, as required for academic success.
Laziness? Maybe. I don't even go to hang out alone like what I used to do when I am in INTI. Or maybe the weather here restrict me from doing so.

I wish I can read more.
I wish I can be more aggressive, more energetic and more motivated than now. Academically, socially, individually...Maybe I need some exercises or outdoor activities.

So, what am I going to do now?

Wait, I have just added two courses which is Intro Combinators and Contemporary Life Sciences. And I don't know any of the progress of these classes! Supposedly I should go to buy textbooks or borrow textbooks for both these subjects, due to the financial restriction, I can only borrow the textbook for math 475.

Also, I have a homework which is due on 14 sept and I need to do some reading on Cs302 desperately.

I should find one day to hang out alone when I feel right to do it. Ya I wanna buy some clothes at Goodwill...

I have no preference for friends, so friends come when we have the similar interest, thus I can just join any activities that I like to make new friends, eg Hoofers, Chess Club, Math Club, Board Games Club and so on...(Why there is no Sudoku club?)

Hmm, I guess that's all what I need to accomplish for recent days. Also I gotta find a way out for my sound setting for ubuntu...some prob with the mic, sigh...