2008年11月18日星期二

New found interest

In a moment I realize that I'm actually interested with Librarian & Information Science as well.
Hope to take these courses for minor:
Information retrieval, Knowledge engineering, Personal Information Management...
But Library science is more preferable, hehe...
Sponsorship thingy is not a stress yet since I'm still optimistic with it. This is my show time ok?
I've start to worry about my plans from Apr till Aug while I should bother my application stuffs...Hmm, I can only say that I am too free, haha.
My confidence boost as if it is impatient to grow up like a child. I know I can always do it. Right dear?
Ok, have a nice sleep first...

2008年9月2日星期二

Unique

My emotion was waving that I nearly cry out.
People those you care will hurt you the most every time. So although it's maybe just a lame joke, I was hurt.
Ya I am aiming high but it is not beyond my ability, I know it very clearly. I just need to be more balanced, be focus and balanced.
So please dear don't listen to much more since you already know what are you trying to achieve. I know it's hard to accept that there is a little hole in the subject that you are always doing well. But it is not the end. It is not the all.
The United States always need unique people. You are actually unique, so never give up before you explore all of them.
As a girl you are a unique one. You like chess, mathematics, sudoku, adventurous activities, event management...But if compared to boys? You are nothing. You try hard to prove that a girl can beat a boy...but you were failed. Are you manage to do that again?
There are still chances...Dear you must be strong, all the time.

First day of short sem

Yes, this is the first day of the fourth semester in my college life. The first time having short semester in my life. Hopefully all will be going smoothly according to plan. Hehe.
I really really wonder where my time has been flowed into. I guess I should record every detail of my life here, although it's quite a boring job. Never mind.
Mandarin class, peer tutor, chess practice...Guess these activities will use up most of my time. I should always be prepared before saying or telling anything, etc. teaching. Actually I just wanna give myself a reason to find my maths lecturers more often. I don't wanna lose to maths, seriously. That is my only gold card.
Soon I will have to go to the examination center and MPH later...Dear you are a brave girl don't you? And you should always have your own way...and yours is the maths track! You should go through the hardest question the simplest theory can make...You should try to tell the people "Hey, I'm here! Catch me if you can..." It ain't no other way. You have to be special. Although you don't think you really are...
This blog is gonna let you catch a glimpse of yourself. Cheer for others when they win and be no evil.
I am missing the old times when I even don't hope to score too high just because don't wanna let my best friend down...How sweet I was. =P
Girl listen...Don't ever waste your time for boys anymore. They won't appreciate whatever you have done. They won't listen to your tears. Just treat them as entertainment. Never ever fall in love again...You 're still not in the right time and right place now.
No matter how, doggie will try its best to protect its master.
Just be focus...aim it and shoot it.

2008年8月28日星期四

Release of the result

It's just not right for me. It's just not going the right way I should have. Putting too much effort on physics and abandoning my differential equation at all, isn't fun at all. I'm like crying to the man I love and he was just one centimeter away before falling down from the high. What do you want from me? What do you wish... Please, don't be so cruel towards me by making me getting an A- for the subject I like the most. I know this subject needs consistent effort..but what have I done? Putting it aside for the whole week and study three hours before the final exam? You are kidding man. Are you serious? You really thought that you can get a good result without doing anything? How about those people who have put in more effort than you are? Are you that lucky? Are you that great, marvellous, awesome? Stop crapping!!! You are just a clown. A clown who deserves what you get now. A clown who thought that everything is easy. In fact you din care at all. In fact, you were wrong.
Be steady girl. This is just a start hinting that you are still unable even to cope with your favorite subjects. Stop dreaming and get your feet back to the ground. If you can't get through it, you can't get through anything. You can make it dear...you can for sure. There is still a long way to go... Don't just leave your journey and go away from your right track. Everything will be fine.

2008年8月27日星期三

The start to crap

Ok. This is my first ever English blog, I guess.

Today is the first day I reach INTI, just before my fourth semester starts.

Tomorrow will be the release of the result for my last semester, yet I have already known half of the results, plus the first day of my first ever trip to an island--the legendary beautiful Tioman Island.

After coming back from the journey I will face an option: dating or not dating?

Feel like I am playing with other's feeling just because of my loneliness during the vacation. There is only one year left staying in Malaysia before departing for the Land of Freedom--the United States. I won't try to maintain a long distance relationship. Allthough he is not too bad. Yet he is merely a good companion.

If I want to I would like to yell to the sky:"If you just want my body come go get it and bring away nothing."

I knew not all of the guys are the same. They are different just like I am different from other girls. Although I think there should be at least a girl who is similar to me from the bottom of the soul plus those miserable life experiences, there won't be a second me.

But how unique am I? Why I'm still in the exploring process? Why can't I just list out the reasons that I am valuable as easy as throw some money on the floor?

...To be continued